I am going to be the first to crack the well wishing barrel this year, and hope all of you have a better next year.

I am a soulless heathen, borderline soulless. I hope that all of your dreams are met, and exceeded. I hope that every dream hope, and wish you might have within a good heart meets every hope and dream that you all could have.

I know I am a son of a bitch Clash, but still you all stand next to my view point right and wrong. This world doesn't have much forgiveness in it anymore, and it shouldn't. 2014 will go down as one of the toughest years I have ever gone through. I just am somebody that always thinks the things you work hardest for are always the things most worth it.

When I read Gawker, I honestly come to the conclusion that my life was really not all that bad.

I think that we all have a personal vision of what we want for ourselves. I would trade every sale I ever made to write "The Great Gatsby".

What do you leave to this world? I would die broke and starving to know that I had just a hinkling of a positive impact on our world. I just don't know how to do it.


I just am so tired of the earth spinning around a sun, that is one of a billion stars, in a galaxy that has an infinite ways that it could all work out.

I can't wrap my mind around that.

I just can't be selfish about it. I guess I am lucky that I have a Venus to share it with. My Moon and Sun.


I hope everyone get's to know the joy of sharing a part of their life with somebody that is going to take half of everything you have.

Merry Xmas.