You have a balloon fetish. You hire a clown to blow up balloons and do that stuff where they make balloon animals at your birthday party. You know that having this done at your party will give you extreme sexual gratification. But, you don't tell the clown about your balloon fetish, so, they are unable to give consent to supplying you with sexual gratification.

Are you a rapist of some sort? Are you perpetuating rape culture? Has the clown been sexually assaulted?

Assume the clown never notices that you are getting off.